I'm having a really hard time caring about anything today. I think a big part of that comes from having the summer-time doldrums. I have about 2 1/2 weeks left of break before heading back to work and I have very mixed emotions about it.
I deal with a TON of anxiety about little day-to-day things, so thinking about the new school year starting is really freaking me out. There's so much to do. Then there's the fact that I have to deal with people when I get back to work. I think I was born to be a hermit. But at the same time, I HATE being that way. I wish I was more of a social creature. But then when I'm out and about, I'm stressing out and having panic attacks about having to even look at other people, let alone interact with them. I love my alone time. In fact, I think that was the cause of the downfall of my last relationship. I just wanted to be left alone. All the time.
It's not like I'm doing anything totally amazing when I'm alone. I just like being alone.
I feel like there are a bunch of emotions I need to sort out right now. But...I can't pinpoint any of them. And I have zero energy to even try right now.
So, my plan for today - refocus on tracking, go on my walking challenge walk, and make smart food choices. So far, so good.