...then today I've eaten it.
I was supposed to go to a family birthday party, but a headache kept me at home. I've also decided to be all down in the dumps over my ex and have been bored out of my skull to boot, so my mood is at a low point. I am NOT in a happy place!
This morning, I did my usual cereal and coffee breakfast as I took in some Nerdist and Orphan Black that I had DVRed last night. No problem. Then somehow, I slipped some peanut butter pretzels WITH cookie butter in for "snack". Okay, I counted them out, I can track it...still not a huge deal.
Then I walked by the pb pretzels and cookie butter a bit later. Now we are at a standing-in-the- kitchen-and-dipping-said-pretzels-into-the-cookie-butter-and-eating-them-right-there place.
Me: Oh, is this really happening?
My Inner Food Demon: Hell, yeah, it is.
Me: Oh, okay. But now it's time to knock it off.
Food Demon: Shucks.
That was followed up at some point by 6 (2 servings) of the Trader Joe's milk chocolate peanut butter cups that should never have found their way into my cart on Friday night.
Lunch - hell, some frozen pastry bites sound like a good idea. And they were DELICIOUS. Until just a short while ago when I found out I consumed 19 points eating those little puppies.
My sister made a Braum's run for her lunch. For those of you are not Texans (I think Braum's only exists in Texas) and unfamiliar with the atrocity of delicious sin that is Braum's, it's like a Dairy Queen, but loftier. Slightly.
Food Demon: Fro yo?
Me: Don't mind if I do!
Weight Watchers Tracker: That will be 12 Points Plus. Please and thank you.
So it's now 4:50 PM. I have consumed every last one of my daily PP and have only 10 weekly PP remaining. I have tracked everything I've eaten. And that is all. Binge over. Back on the wagon.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Today's Weigh In
So, I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but I'd been feeling very discouraged this past week because my weight was up over my first week weight loss and I just didn't feel like anything was ever going to come off.
But I actually lost .6 and am down to 334.8. I'm very happy with that considering I didn't think I was going to lose anything! It's not quite the 1 lb I was hoping for, but that happens.
I did exceptionally well all week, staying in my points and exercising for at least 11 minutes a day...
Yes, 11 minutes.
The first week, I promised myself I would do 10 minutes a day and this past week, I added a minute. Guess what? This week, I'm adding another minute, bringing it to a total of 12 minutes a day. And I'll keep doing that everyday until I'm up to 30 minutes. That's my goal for now (and I should reach that sometime this fall, I do believe). After I hit 30, I'll adjust my goal accordingly. I think my aim will be anywhere from 30-45 minutes daily.
Lastly, I have a quick and easy salad recipe to share.
I've been doing a lot of indoor grilling lately and marinating boneless, skinless chicken breasts in a homemade southwest marinade. After marinating for a few hours (or overnight), I throw those puppies on the stove top grill.
Chop the chicken up, throw it on a bed of lettuce with some tomatoes, salsa, guacamole, and a little light sour cream and you've got dinner. You could also add some cheese in there too, but I chose to forego it.
Southwest Marinated Chicken
2-3 boneless, skinless chicken breasts
3 cloves crushed garlic
2 tbsp lime juice (lemon would work as well)
1 tbsp olive oil
1 tbsp dried minced onion
1 tsp cumin
1 tsp corriander
salt & pepper to taste
I throw this marinade together with the chicken in a big zip lock bag. The last time I made it, in fact, I used frozen chicken and just allowed it to thaw in the marinade on the counter during the day and it was perfect.
Thanks for stopping by!
But I actually lost .6 and am down to 334.8. I'm very happy with that considering I didn't think I was going to lose anything! It's not quite the 1 lb I was hoping for, but that happens.
I did exceptionally well all week, staying in my points and exercising for at least 11 minutes a day...
Yes, 11 minutes.
The first week, I promised myself I would do 10 minutes a day and this past week, I added a minute. Guess what? This week, I'm adding another minute, bringing it to a total of 12 minutes a day. And I'll keep doing that everyday until I'm up to 30 minutes. That's my goal for now (and I should reach that sometime this fall, I do believe). After I hit 30, I'll adjust my goal accordingly. I think my aim will be anywhere from 30-45 minutes daily.
Lastly, I have a quick and easy salad recipe to share.
I've been doing a lot of indoor grilling lately and marinating boneless, skinless chicken breasts in a homemade southwest marinade. After marinating for a few hours (or overnight), I throw those puppies on the stove top grill.
Chop the chicken up, throw it on a bed of lettuce with some tomatoes, salsa, guacamole, and a little light sour cream and you've got dinner. You could also add some cheese in there too, but I chose to forego it.
Southwest Marinated Chicken
2-3 boneless, skinless chicken breasts
3 cloves crushed garlic
2 tbsp lime juice (lemon would work as well)
1 tbsp olive oil
1 tbsp dried minced onion
1 tsp cumin
1 tsp corriander
salt & pepper to taste
I throw this marinade together with the chicken in a big zip lock bag. The last time I made it, in fact, I used frozen chicken and just allowed it to thaw in the marinade on the counter during the day and it was perfect.
Thanks for stopping by!
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Thoughts on Breaking Up
I'm feeling pretty blue tonight. I'm feeling pretty lost.
That's one of the scarier sides of weight loss for me. I'm not using food as a buffer, so there's not that big block between me and my emotions.
As I mentioned a few posts back, I've just gone through a break up. I think in the beginning, I was very much in denial and told myself this was temporary. But as time passes, I'm realizing it's not. This was the person I really thought I was going to share my life and my home and build a family with. This was supposed to be "the one". But it just wasn't working. For many reasons.
So now, for the first time in my life, I'm truly embarking upon a life as a single woman. Prior to this, I was single for maybe a total of four months in my adult life. I've been something of a serial monogamist. I just can't see myself moving on to another relationship anytime in the near future, if ever. And that makes me sad. And it makes me scared. It's time to lean on me and that's probably the scariest piece of all. What if I am alone for the rest of my life? What if I am completely unloveable? What if I am completely incapable of truly loving another person?
I think it would be different if I was younger, but then, maybe not. I'm rapidly approaching 40 and about to hit the end of my viable child bearing years. I've thought a lot the past week or so about making a conscious choice to become a single mother. It's not something that's in the cards for at least a year or two (I'm currently 37), just because finances and my living situation need to be put in order. I'll make up my mind that this is what I'm going to do, then I mourn the loss of the life I thought I was going to live. Creating a home and a life and a family with a partner. And of course, I am still grieving for the loss of my relationship, even if it was my choice to leave.
It's hitting me harder the past few days. Just little, little things that I miss about her and about us. And honestly, I question whether I have made a horrible mistake. But the worst thing I think I could do right now is try to make amends, because I have no doubt I would only face rejection and that would make it all so much more painful and difficult. And I can't go through that again. I haven't really allowed myself to think too much or to grieve too hard. I've pushed it all down and tried to ignore it, knowing it would eventually catch up with me. And I think it's beginning to now.
That's one of the scarier sides of weight loss for me. I'm not using food as a buffer, so there's not that big block between me and my emotions.
As I mentioned a few posts back, I've just gone through a break up. I think in the beginning, I was very much in denial and told myself this was temporary. But as time passes, I'm realizing it's not. This was the person I really thought I was going to share my life and my home and build a family with. This was supposed to be "the one". But it just wasn't working. For many reasons.
So now, for the first time in my life, I'm truly embarking upon a life as a single woman. Prior to this, I was single for maybe a total of four months in my adult life. I've been something of a serial monogamist. I just can't see myself moving on to another relationship anytime in the near future, if ever. And that makes me sad. And it makes me scared. It's time to lean on me and that's probably the scariest piece of all. What if I am alone for the rest of my life? What if I am completely unloveable? What if I am completely incapable of truly loving another person?
I think it would be different if I was younger, but then, maybe not. I'm rapidly approaching 40 and about to hit the end of my viable child bearing years. I've thought a lot the past week or so about making a conscious choice to become a single mother. It's not something that's in the cards for at least a year or two (I'm currently 37), just because finances and my living situation need to be put in order. I'll make up my mind that this is what I'm going to do, then I mourn the loss of the life I thought I was going to live. Creating a home and a life and a family with a partner. And of course, I am still grieving for the loss of my relationship, even if it was my choice to leave.
It's hitting me harder the past few days. Just little, little things that I miss about her and about us. And honestly, I question whether I have made a horrible mistake. But the worst thing I think I could do right now is try to make amends, because I have no doubt I would only face rejection and that would make it all so much more painful and difficult. And I can't go through that again. I haven't really allowed myself to think too much or to grieve too hard. I've pushed it all down and tried to ignore it, knowing it would eventually catch up with me. And I think it's beginning to now.
Still Going
Hey all...just a quick post to say I'm still here and I'm still with it. Yesterday was my 14th consecutive day working out and my 13th day staying on program.
I'm a bit of a scale addict, so I weigh myself everyday. I was feeling a but discouraged because despite all my best efforts my number was going up this week. I mean, c'mon!!! I'm exercising everyday, staying in my Points Plus range, ya know?
Thankfully, the scale was back down today. I was very pleased and feeling that all my hard work is paying off. I'll post my official weigh in results Saturday.
I also have a recipe to share this weekend!
My thought for the day comes from something I saw on Pinterest. I can't remember the exact wording but it was something to the effect of: it takes 4 weeks to make changes, 8 weeks to see the changes in yourself, and 12 weeks for other people to notice the changes. Give it 12 weeks.
The "other people" portion does not pertain to my mom who just told me yesterday my face looks thinner. But I think that's just because she smokes crack.*. ;)
*my mom does not really, nor has she ever, smoked crack.
I'm a bit of a scale addict, so I weigh myself everyday. I was feeling a but discouraged because despite all my best efforts my number was going up this week. I mean, c'mon!!! I'm exercising everyday, staying in my Points Plus range, ya know?
Thankfully, the scale was back down today. I was very pleased and feeling that all my hard work is paying off. I'll post my official weigh in results Saturday.
I also have a recipe to share this weekend!
My thought for the day comes from something I saw on Pinterest. I can't remember the exact wording but it was something to the effect of: it takes 4 weeks to make changes, 8 weeks to see the changes in yourself, and 12 weeks for other people to notice the changes. Give it 12 weeks.
The "other people" portion does not pertain to my mom who just told me yesterday my face looks thinner. But I think that's just because she smokes crack.*. ;)
*my mom does not really, nor has she ever, smoked crack.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
This Week
So things are still going along swimmingly. The past two days haven't been perfect, but they've been much improved.
Last Sunday, I was back up to 343. Today (my official weigh-in day), I'm down almost 8 lbs at 335.4. I've been listening to a new podcast called Half-Size Me, which has really given me some food for thought. The woman who does the Podcast lost 170 lbs, most of it on Weight Watchers. She said she created benchmarks for herself and what I took from this was a goal of losing 6 lbs every 6 weeks, which, of course, works out to 1 lb a week. OMG. Light bulb moment. How doable is that? Ummm...very.
It's funny, because it's not like this is a suddenly new concept to me or anything, but somehow it just really clicked. I went through the calendar on my phone and set my 6 lbs/6 week goals and if I truly only do lose a pound a week, it will take me til my 41st birthday in August of 2016 to get there. And somehow, I'm okay with that.
A friend of mine reminded me that the time will still pass anyway. Might as well pass it getting healthier.
In other news, I'm planning on doing massive quantities of alcohol drinking tonight, so I've planned my food accordingly.
And that is all for now.
Last Sunday, I was back up to 343. Today (my official weigh-in day), I'm down almost 8 lbs at 335.4. I've been listening to a new podcast called Half-Size Me, which has really given me some food for thought. The woman who does the Podcast lost 170 lbs, most of it on Weight Watchers. She said she created benchmarks for herself and what I took from this was a goal of losing 6 lbs every 6 weeks, which, of course, works out to 1 lb a week. OMG. Light bulb moment. How doable is that? Ummm...very.
It's funny, because it's not like this is a suddenly new concept to me or anything, but somehow it just really clicked. I went through the calendar on my phone and set my 6 lbs/6 week goals and if I truly only do lose a pound a week, it will take me til my 41st birthday in August of 2016 to get there. And somehow, I'm okay with that.
A friend of mine reminded me that the time will still pass anyway. Might as well pass it getting healthier.
In other news, I'm planning on doing massive quantities of alcohol drinking tonight, so I've planned my food accordingly.
And that is all for now.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
What to Listen to While Walking
Yesterday was my third day in a row of getting back to walking. Oftentimes, I listen to a podcast on my walks. Always, I listen to something. Podcasts keep my brain busy which I appreciate. Especially right now as I have more than one health issue causing me some pain and discomfort during my excursions.
If I'm not listening to a podcast, I'm listening to music. I thought I would share my current playlist as it gave me quite the boost the past couple of days.
The Strokes - 12:51
Kate Miller Heidke - Can't Shake It
Ben Folds - The Frown Song
Caribou - Odessa
Broken Bells - The Ghost Inside
The Kills - Getting Down
The Organ - Let the Bells Ring
MGMT - Electric Feel
Of Montreal - Voltaic Crusher/Undrum to Muted Da
I have a gazillion other songs I could add. These are all fairly fast tempo/upbeat tunes which really helps.
In other news, I'm down almost 8 pounds since Sunday by counting Points+ and getting some walking time in.
If I'm not listening to a podcast, I'm listening to music. I thought I would share my current playlist as it gave me quite the boost the past couple of days.
The Strokes - 12:51
Kate Miller Heidke - Can't Shake It
Ben Folds - The Frown Song
Caribou - Odessa
Broken Bells - The Ghost Inside
The Kills - Getting Down
The Organ - Let the Bells Ring
MGMT - Electric Feel
Of Montreal - Voltaic Crusher/Undrum to Muted Da
I have a gazillion other songs I could add. These are all fairly fast tempo/upbeat tunes which really helps.
In other news, I'm down almost 8 pounds since Sunday by counting Points+ and getting some walking time in.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
On Mindless Eating
Hi anyone who might be reading...
It's been awhile. I've had some mighty stumbles a long my way. Some big things in my life have changed in the past few weeks.
But April is my month.
I don't want to delve too deeply, because that's where I get into trouble. I overthink things.
Anyway, I'm counting Points+ again and succumbed to temptation today...
A co-worker got a complimentary pastry with her lunch which I initially turned down. A second co-worker suggested we share it. Share we did, but we both just took a small portion. I'd say I had a sixth of it. I later looked up the Points+ value to see that the whole thing has 20.5 PP! Omg! So I rounded my sixth up to 4 PP for good measure, but my word, that's a hefty sum.
And I really didn't even enjoy it. It was dry and too cinnamony. But I ate it anyway, mostly without thinking about it, but partly too because I didn't want to seem "rude". How silly.
I've been walking again so I'll be walking again this evening.
Til next time....
It's been awhile. I've had some mighty stumbles a long my way. Some big things in my life have changed in the past few weeks.
But April is my month.
I don't want to delve too deeply, because that's where I get into trouble. I overthink things.
Anyway, I'm counting Points+ again and succumbed to temptation today...
A co-worker got a complimentary pastry with her lunch which I initially turned down. A second co-worker suggested we share it. Share we did, but we both just took a small portion. I'd say I had a sixth of it. I later looked up the Points+ value to see that the whole thing has 20.5 PP! Omg! So I rounded my sixth up to 4 PP for good measure, but my word, that's a hefty sum.
And I really didn't even enjoy it. It was dry and too cinnamony. But I ate it anyway, mostly without thinking about it, but partly too because I didn't want to seem "rude". How silly.
I've been walking again so I'll be walking again this evening.
Til next time....
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